Count Me Naive

So the boyfriend will be out of town for a month. And a few weeks ago I found out about this movie, Magic Mike starred by Channing Tatum, Alex Pettyfer, Matthew McConaughey, Matt Bomer, and Joe Manganiello. The film is basically telling a story about Mike, an experienced stripper, takes a younger performer called The Kid under his wing and schools him in the arts of partying, picking up women, and making easy money. I mean, it’s like God is sending me a gift to ease my loneliness that is caused by the leaving of my boyfriend. Tatum, Pettyfer, and McConaughey in one movie? And bare chest too? And they strip? Oh come on, this is gotta be my lucky month.

I was watching the trailer earlier and I can’t believe I was whistling like a pervert! But then again, a girl like me, mentally sexual, what can I do? I bet women all over the world is feeling the same way about 29th of June 2012. It’s like, the official day of women that love abs and strip and straight man! Oh, and I guess some gays would love it too. Can’t blame them. We got a pair of healthy eyes and we sure can’t keep em from seeing such amazing bodies of amazing faces. Ultimately sexy. 

For one moment there, I was thinking to myself, what if they put Chris Evans and William Levy Gutierrez in that too? Then I would shot myself and die peacefully. But not after watching them first, of course. And the amazing this was, I found out on IMDb.com that William Levy was offered a role but he declined! My God, I think I have the same taste—or thoughts with the directors. I mean, come on, who wouldn’t think about Gutierrez when you make a movie about stripper man? 

So, it’s been set between me and my friend. We’re gonna enjoy the movie in cinema, free as we can be since the our man is not around. We are fucking free enjoying those strippers since we couldn’t have one in this country. God I love Steven Soderbergh!

He’s the first reason for everything I did in my life. He’s my top priority after God. He was born on 13th of January 1964. Didn’t come from a wealthy background. He was born with a small height, with a lot blessings and skill. In his childhood period, he developed so much characteristic that made him now. He was a brave young boy, often got himself into a fight with a bully in his school, despite the size of his body. But even back then he also started to develop a sense of giving, affection, and sincerity. Once he was asked by his mum to sell rambutans for some money and he ended up handing out every piece of that fruits to the homeless man on the street.

He is smart, he is diligent, and always rely all of his hope and life to God. He’s a religious man. Turns out God give him a lot of countless blessings. He gave the man a life, a family, a wife, and fortunes. Lots of fortunes that he himself couldn’t have imagined before.

Twenty years ago, I didn’t know that I’m gonna start my life with the most amazing person I’ve ever had. He had me, and my precious adventurous life was begun. I didn’t notice, I didn’t know what a perfect someone I had in my life. But soon enough, after things I saw in my life, I knew he’s so precious and irreplaceable that I should dedicated my whole life for him. 

He’s giving me so much things to learn, a little from words, and much from act. He, unconsciously, gave me a lesson of life, about giving, affection, and sincerity. He always one step ahead of me. He act even before I began to think about it. He always got plans. He always care for me, doing the best he can to keep me happy and in my best condition. He always give me more than I hoped. And that’s leaving me to loving him so much until it hurts everytime I think that I’m gonna have to lose him someday. I told him, I am telling him of how valuable he is for me, how all my efforts in my life is to make him proud of me. I’m trying to be like him. Upon all, he is my hero, he is the center of my world. 

And I’m sure I am on my way to make him proud. I love you dad. And I know you love me too, even when you’re always being skeptical about it. Please be healthy as always. I ain’t even half way of making you proud. :)

You’ve awared to the fact that you’re going to be out of town this weekend. And you’ve got the whole day to ask me out but you didn’t. So what’s in use of meeting tonight? You knew I was sick and yet you wait until evening to just meet me in person. Not that I didn’t tell you that all my schedules were cancelled for today. For me, it looks like you don’t have the urge to stay with me, to spend time with me. And what’s with telling me that you’re going out this weekend? I don’t get it. Sometimes I just don’t understand the way you planned things. We’re completely in a different tracks here. I told you that I miss you and my health wasn’t so good yesterday, yet you didn’t do anything about it. Talk about disappointment.

Dengan tujuan menyebarkan ajaran Tuhan kita Yesus Kristus, tidak masuk akal bila kita menutupi diri dengan jubah gelap yang menutupi jiwa kita di hadapan orang lain. Dengan tidak masuk akal juga menyuarakan kata-kata kita seolah-olah itu adalah kata-kata-Nya, menutupi sebuah doktrin yang menyajikan dirinya sedemikian terbuka kepada semua, sehingga, melalui iman, Yesus Kristus dapat sungguh-sungguh menyatu dengan diri kita. 

Tidak ada cara untuk memahami kenapa Gereja Suci telah menutupi dirinya dengan kabut rahasia yang bertentangan dengan sukacita yang terkandung dalam ajaran Tuhan kita. Karena iman kita adalah juga sukacita dan persekutuan, bukan sikap murah hati tetapi menghakimi yang ditunjukkan oleh wajah kita. Ada sukacita dalam komitmen kita untuk menyiarkan doktrin-Nya, terikat oleh pegorbanan dan penderitaan yang Dia alami demi kita. Setiap seminaris dididik dengan cukup keras untuk memikul beban dosa umat manusia, mengubah dirinya menjadi orang lain yang bekerja keras penuh penderitaan, alih-alih melalukannya dengan sukacita pesan Sang Juruselamat.

Solusinya tergantung kepada kita, karena di jantung Gereja, kita memuja dogma-dogma kuno yang bahkan tak berani saya ungkapkan kepada Sang Pencipta. Selama sekian abad, banyak pria telah menduduki singgsana Santo Petrus. Kekuasaan dan kekayaan yang dikumpulkan selama masa itu tidak terhitung banyaknya. Saya berani mengatakan bahwa kita adalah negara terkaya di dunia. Bagaimana hal itu bisa terjadi, bila tugas utama kita adalah mendekat pada umat? Kewajiban kita untuk menolong sesama menjadi tindakan yang dipilih secara selektif sesuai kebutuhan besar, padahal yang kita bicarakan ini adalah warisan dari Yesus kepada Petrus si Nelayan, pusaka yang telah bertahan sepanjang sejarah hingga sampai kepada saya.

Kita harus merenungkan serangkaian pertanyaan mendasar, tetapi pertama-tama kita harus menunjukkan jalan yang benar. Dan satu-satunya jalan adalah Tuhan Yesus Kristus, Bapa kita. Pertanyaan apa yang bisa disampaikan saat kita menemui Bapa? Semua pertanyaan. Hanya dengan mendengarkan ajaran dan tuntunan-Nya, karena Dia telah menjawab semua pertanyaan yang mungkin semenjak dulu, dan Dia terus menjawabnya. Saya berani mengatakan semua pertanyaan telah mendapatkan jawaban, bahkan berbagai pertanyaan baru. Tetapi dalam dunia modern yang sulit ini ada formula yang selalu dapat menuntun kita menuju jalan kasih dan kebaikan, jalan Tuhan. Kita harus bertanya kepada diri sendiri : Apa yang akan dilakukan Yesus? Pertanyaan sederhana ini adalah jawaban atas semua  pertanyaan kita. Apa yang akan dilakukan Yesus?

Kontrasepsi? Hidup adalah sukacita, begitu pula dengan anak-anak saat kehadiran mereka diinginkan. Mengapa kita harus mengubah karunia Ilahi menjadi suatu beban?

Hubungan homoseksual? Jangan menghakimi.

Kehidupan selibat pastor? Di manakah hal ini dibicarakan  dalam injil?

Pastor wanita? Kita semua setara di mata Tuhan.

Sudah menjadi tugas Gereja untuk membuktikan diri kepada kaum percaya dan menyampaikan Firman Tuhan kepada mereka, menolong mereka yang paling membutuhkan tanpa melihat ras maupun keyakinannya. Mendekat ke agama lain tanpa menghakimi nilai maupun keyakinan mereka, melainkan dengan semangat persaudaraan serta berbagi kebijaksanaan dan kasih. Bukan mimpi yang diciptakan di Surga saat seorang Kristiani bisa berdoa kepada Tuhan-nya di dalam masjid dan seorang Muslim bisa berdoa kepada Tuhan-nya di dalam gereja. Tanpa penolakan atau konfrontasi. Karena Surga bisa, dan sudah seharusnya, dimulai di bumi.

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In approximately 2 hours from now I’m gonna stop being a teenager, theoretically. My feeling? A little bit blue, to face the fact that my age would not be called teen anymore. Man, in my mind, being twenties is a big deal. I mean, you’re like officially becoming the real adult. Like you have new responsibilities to carry through. Not like I have more responsibilities, per se. But there are some big issues I have to deal with. For instance, I am not entirely sure that I am ready to be an adult. But not that I am childish or something. I suppose people in their twenties should act more like a mature people, I don’t know if being pampered to your dad is still allowed at this age. I don’t know if twenties people still talking in front of the mirror to themselves while trying over a bunch of clothes with no reason at all. It’s just, there has to be a big leap that shows that you are changing into a real grown ups. Puberty is suck.

Looking back to the time when I was sixteen, I’m relieved now that I was able to pass the adolescence very well for girls my age. I don’t smoke though I did try once or twice. I never had any tattoo. I have a religion (fortunately the same as my parents). I grow boobs, hips, waist, and some ass. I got my first period. I still got my period. Had my first love. Had my first boyfriend. Had my second boyfriend. Keep my second boyfriend to today (I love you Benjamin!) and have no intention of breaking it any time ever. Had my first kiss. Had my first, um, yeah. Definitely no sex, I still save my virginity, (thanks to the Lord Almighty). Enroll an education in STAN. Able to wear an approximately 12 centimeters high heels while running without falling. Know how to dress properly. And the most precious thing that I’m proud of, is I could play guitar now. And drive a car (bruised it one or two or maybe more but who’s counting). Made my first record. Asked people around me to listen to my record. Still friends with Lucyana Sitompul, Maria Bintang Adriana Panggabean, Sandrina Oktaviola Silitonga, and Simon Sibarani. Made new friends in my boarding house in college, Anggi Aura Hutagalung, Denadella Kartika, Dina Sari, Dyshafilia Charindra, and Mega Septia Pratiwi. Guys, I wrote your name in order of alphabet, no offense, take note.

Still one of the big things I have right now is the boy. Or shall I say the man? Benjamin Gultom. I…I grew up faster with him all along. I learned to be modest, to be brave, to take a risk, to love, to share, to sacrifice, to accept, to understand, to know that there are things in this world that matter more than myself. To feel the happiness, to touch the happiness. To commit. To hold back. To promise. Practically all the give and take craps. And I’m so thankful for that. He may even not now it how much I love him. How much I could go to keep this bond between us. Way past the border. Way past his thoughts.

My family. Yeah my family. Mum and Dad. The best parents I could ask for. You guys are responsible for letting me grow into some dependent girl, always need your supports (mentally and physically). Tessalonika Aurelia Tampubolon. She grew into a very beautiful girl (with some weights along). I just hope the best for her battle. You know you can do it, little sister. Deep down you and I know, I love you so much, and I know that you do too. Joseph and Gabby, you guys are doing okay. 

I’m doing a speech now, ain’t I? Well I might as well do, since I couldn’t hold all this feeling back. This is so big. I feel like I’m winning an Oscar. But who cares? This is my damn blog and I got every damn rights to write whatever I want.

Now, my big plans for the beginning of the new adventure of twenties :

• Graduate from college, finish my school ASAP.
• INTERCOURSE. After marrying the man, of course. I don’t wanna be a hypocrite. That is just not my style at all. Who wouldn’t wanna get some es-e-ex?
• Name my first son as Joshua Frederickson. No laugh please, I’m being serious here.
• Open my boutique and salon with Anggi and Mega.
• Buy a white Nissan Juke.
• Buy a house with a big backyard
• Other bullshits that you wouldn’t read.

I wrote this now so one day when I fulfill those plans I could burst myself into a very hilarious laugh. I hope so. So, one big last question. Do I sad to be a young adult? Not at all bitches. I’m glad I left my teen age. Puberty sucks man, except those rattle heartbeat when you had your first crush and kiss. Twenty, I’m coming. Left no regret at all. I am a great girl for all you need to know!